Lucky Me

The following is something I wrote waaay back in 1990. I was becoming aware of the cause and effect of my peers choices, and how we allow others to effect us. Reading this today, I'm a little proud of myself for understanding this influence at such a 'young' age. I still try hard to stay in the middle and surround myself with people who have healthy spirits. Although I think I deny myself quite a bit of adventure by making the choices I do, I guess my inner safety switch will not be quieted. As a newbee 40 year old, this poem seems applicable to me in more ways than before. Our people really ARE everything at the end of the day.

Lucky Me

There once was a girl
who's now become a woman,
She struck out blindly
reaching out for anyone.

Lucky as she is
She came upon some people,
Who, with a little time
made life seem simple,

Questioning life often
but not doubting what it is,
Gliding UP the hills
avoiding the rough edges.

Fear plays a part
in her struggle against time,
Is she performing the
prophecies of her 'life-line'?

Like gently being guided
through a maze of paths,
Here I am today
what's tomorrow's task?

June 21, 1990

06/06/06 is my 40th Birthday.....Yikes!

Here I am, the big 40 staring me in the face, and I don't feel any of the forlorn feelings I expected to feel. I feel happy, lucky, comfortable, and glad to be exactly where I am. Maybe it's because my life has been leading me all this time to where I am supposed to be...right here, right now.

My husband (great guy that he is) and one of my close girlfriends got together and planned a big surprise birthday party for me last Saturday. It felt really weird to have all these people I care about here, in one place, together, all being happy for me. They worked hard to keep it a surprise and had the whole place decorated like crazy. With all of the variety of people here, some friends from long ago, some from far away, some recent close friends.....I felt like I was on the old show "This Is Your Life"! Needless to say, I went to bed feeling 16, and woke up feeling 65. Today, I think 40 is just about right. However, at 40 years old, I have to realize that I am not a rock star, and I have no business partying like a rock star! Lord, have mercy! My family and friends are the best people in the world. I am so fortunate to have had the relationships throughout my life to help me be who I am today. The acts and thoughts of kindness brought me to tears several times throughout the evening.

My wishes for the future are simply more of what I already have. I hope for health and happiness for all those who have a place in my heart. The older I get, the more value human friendship has over any other riches in the world.

I only hope others like me are blessed with the love of others, and are able to flourish as I do with their support.